Memories and Dreams

     Well here I am with another post in less than a week.  Shocking I know, but I just had something I wanted to share.
     The last few days my sweet grandmother has been on my mind.  Understand that not a day has gone by since her death that I don't think of her and miss her, it has just been so much stronger the last few days.  Maybe it is because it is spring and she loved planting flowers and piddling in her yard.  It also could be we are coming to Easter one of her most favorite times of the year. But, for whatever reason she has been right there on my mind.  The other night I was putting something away in the refridgerator, when my eye caught her picture hanging on it.  It is a picture from her 90th birthday party and she is smiling that smile that only she could.  It was a smile that could light up any room.  A smile that exuded love and joy.  As I saw it I began to cry.  Oh how I miss that smile.
     Last night I was baking a whipping cream pound cake for a very good friend whose grandmother passed away.  Now this is not just any pound cake, this is my grandmother's pound cake and let me tell you, I make it just like she taught me.  Last night while I was baking, I was overcome with her presence.  I could hear her telling me each step and fussing if I put too much flour in at one time. I could hear her reminding me that you put the eggs in one at the time and never break them directly into the bowl.  What a feeling of sadness, yet overwhelming joy.  I realize that her spirit is always with me, guiding me through the good times and bad times and yes the cake baking times!!
     For the last week I have wanted my grandmother to come to me in my dreams just so I could see her and last night she did.  It was only for a split second but she was there.  During this Easter Season, that she treasured so much, I am reminded that while her body is no longer walking on Earth, her Spirit is with her Heavenly Father and all around me.  It is because of Easter that I will be reunited with her one day.  Until them, I will keep baking her cakes and remembering that smile!   Until next time.....

Counting my Many Blessings!

     So I have spent the last few days throwing a pity party for myself.  We all do it from time to time, but this one has been way worse than it needed to be.  It is like this, I was scheduled to leave on a fabulous trip to the beach with some fabulous friends.  Unfortunately, I started punching the numbers and realized it was not going to be possible.  So I did what I do best, I pouted....more like sobbed.  I tried to blame my lack of sleep from the night before and my case of PMS that is going on...but basically I was just pissed.  I get so frustrated sometimes that I have always done what was expected of me, earned things not been handed them and tried to be a good person.  (Yes I've failed at that last one from time to time, but haven't we all)
To top off my pity party, as I was leaving work yesterday I realized I didn't have enough gas to get home and a negative balance in the bank so I was unable to purchase needed gas.  I called my mom in hysterics.  I finally found another one of my fabulous friends that came to my aid and I got home. 
      When my "Saintly" friend Carol arrived to rescue me at the gas station it was then I realized just how blessed I really am.  So what if I can't go to the beach.  Look at all the things that I am fortunate to have, food to eat, a roof over my head, a family that loves me and helps me when I'm in need, friends that are there to pick me up when I am down and even bring a little gas money and most importantly a God that loves me unconditionly and helps me see the things that truly matter.  Don't mourn what you do not have, Thank Him for what you do have!  God Bless

----until next time